Sep. 17th, 2010 10:38 am
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Nothing makes you feel like a failure more than not being able to meet the expectations you have for yourself. Especially when that expectation is so minor, so easy, that damn near everyone can succeed at it, to some degree.

And you just...drop. What is wrong with me that I just can't get Algebra, even though I enjoy working the problems?

There have been so many distractions this first month of the semester, but they shouldn't have mattered. I should have managed. I should be able to do this... But today is our first exam. I've been studying. I opened a practice test. I stared at the first problem. And I didn't have the faintest, foggiest clue on what I was supposed to do with it.

Unfortunately, during a semester there are so few tests that if you fail one, there's almost no hope of recovery. So it becomes a choice: take the test, fail it, and get less than a C on the course, just to retake it again. Or drop it, promise to study hard and KNOW Algebra before taking it again next semester, and feel like you've failed yourself AGAIN.

Like most things in my life, Algebra is one of those things that I enjoy, but am a failure at. Right now I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. It shouldn't be this hard. I don't understand why I can't understand it. I take some pride it being able to figure things out. I may not figure them out the most efficient way, but I can figure 'em out enough to get them to work, consistently.

But not Algebra. And without Algebra, I can't take most of the classes I still need to take to get my bachelor's.

On the up side: I won't have to take 2 hour lunches anymore just to attend the damn class.

But I still feel like a failure.

Date: 2010-09-17 04:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
You are not a failure. Have you failed at something? Quite possibly. Failure at an activity/task does not make you personally a failure. You actually tried to do something that's hard for you. There are so many people in this world that don't.

Have you tried talking to your prof?

(I also have a truly abysmal time with math, to the point I dropped math not once, but three times in college and barely scraped through Logic to fulfill my math requirement.)

Date: 2010-09-19 01:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
First off ... Algebra is NOT something everyone can do. It has been the stumbling block for more than one highly intelligent friend of mine. Including me!

I finally mastered it last year, but only because I was fortunate enough to get a teacher who was a teacher first and a mathmatitian second. Unfortunately, most math teachers it is the other way around.

You will get this. I have faith. It may not be this semester, but it will happen. I now have proof that when students who study and have a good work eithic fail math ... it is more the fault of the teacher than the student.

Date: 2010-09-19 03:09 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] vdansk
Anna, I dropped Organic Chemistry TWICE rather than fail it. Got an A- the third time. And i am not a failure, a slacker, or dumb.

And neither are you.


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